Wednesday, March 8, 2017

In Search of a Father


In search of a Father


In search of a dad

That never truly loved me

Ended up laying with a man

To make myself feel complete

Allowed satan to take

My joy and my peace

But now I’m takin back what the devil stole from me

Ever since I can remember I’ve always been mad

Was labeled as bad

But was really wishing I had a real earthly dad

Don’t get me wrong I love my heavenly King

He is my world, my Jehovah everything

But in the natural I feel like I’m searching for a man

When I need to be searching for God’s plan

To take my life all over this land

To the nations

His elevation

Comes with constellation

He is my motivation

Since the creation

I’ve come to the realization

That no matter how hard I look

I’ll never find in a person what the devil took

But this enemy, no this thief has to repay his debt seven times

The number of completion

To my spirit, soul, and mind

The time is now for me to conquer this demon

I’m getting sick and tired of his plotting and scheming

To seduce my mind and make me feel

Like my heart will never heal

Nor the pain that I conceal

The emotions are oh so real

But with Jehovah Rapha even my emotions can be healed

Daddy I love you, I wish this were true

But sometimes I don’t know if love is possible with you

Why did you hurt me,

Why didn’t you care

God had to pick up the broken pieces that you couldn’t bear

This generational curse has to end here

Or I fear

That it will trickle down the bloodline

And poison the minds

Of my brothers and sisters

Who will in no wise

Realize

This injustice

Or this tragedy

Yes, this generational curse of self-hate has got to end with me

So I choose this day to release the pain

And remain in the arms of my real Father, You know His name

Sandtrice Denise Russell
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